So I have these little "obsessions" that, come to find out, is actually part of bipolar disorder. BPD shares symptoms with other disorders, such as ADHD, Schizophrenia, depression, etc. My topic of rambling today happens to be about a shared symptom with OCD.
Many folks who know me personally know that one thing I'm famous for is my odd silverware obsession. My grandpa said it best when he said that I have to keep the silverware lined up like soldiers in the drawer. I can't walk away if one piece is out of sorts. I avoid looking in silverware drawers that aren't mine because of this.
Anyway...
So another obsession I have is digging in my ears with Q-Tips. I know it's not good for my ears, but it's something that I just have to do for some reason. I mean, I frequently make my ear canals bleed, that's how bad it is. What's worse? I thought we were out of Q-Tips. It's been like, 2 weeks. Yesterday I found a straggler in the medicine cabinet. I realized that I'm like a cotton swab junkie, because I was nearly drooling over the damned thing and carefully planning how much digging each ear would get.
I know. Weird.
No, wait. Not weird-- Twisted.
I take an anti-psychotic, a mood stabilizer, a mild tranquilizer, but I don't know if these or any other meds will ever cure the obsessions. I truly hope so.
